Looking at my schedule for my hols. feel like crying. It is like fully booked. Not a single day in the 4 week do i have i day off ( i refer to weekdays)
Siansation.
That crazy Pamela just call me with another person's hp. Don't really remember that guy's name. But i met him at causeway. Anyway that Pamela asked him to call me and acted like i had commited some serious offence like that. Then don't know why keep calling me gay. Jokers.
I just looked back at my old blog, and i finally know the reasons why people keep journals or blogs. i looked at my older blog and i see the difference in mindset and understanding of things. i see that i have grown in understanding of the things around me. It's a wonderous feeling. A feeling that cannot be expressed in the simple form of words. I was half laughing my head off reading the entry. I laughed at how naive i was. Time helps us to grow or should i say it forces us to grow with it.
Today, tiring day. Woke up early in the morning. Having practical exam in the morning means that i have to wake up in the morn to go to sch. if not, i could have at least another 4 hours of beauty sleep. Dots.
Got to school. there was this guy from sji who took the prac paper with us. Name's Alvin Tan W.Y. even he himself didn't know the reason why he was with us. Diao. Anyways, after prac, i went to over to HDB hub but could not find the auditorium so i ran around in circles until i found Lim Han. finally we found the place. It was at the Basement no wonder i could not find it. The rest was expected scoldings here and there, errors here and there. I mean it's common.
tiring. tomorrow still have got chem prac help i am drowning.
i will let you know once i am done drowning k?
until next time
枫岚 : 11:10 下午 考完了!不过,我像是病了。我患上考试后遗症。考试时,每天忙得不可开交,一直忙于背书,背得头昏脑胀但还是似懂非懂。现在可好?不!现在没事做,闷得发慌。风雨来临之前的静,往往最恐怖了。每天在想:“这一次,会有几科不及格”等等的问题。
枫岚 : 10:32 上午 直到今天,终于恍然大悟。我是个大傻子。做事的想法太天真,认为付出就会有收获,但实际上,不是这样。掏空了心却一点收获都没有。空虚,伤心。都是自作自受,自己的一厢情愿。受过了伤但却还不知道学会保护自己。笨,笨到极点。连保护自己的本能都没有。这就等于把身上的盔甲都脱了,任人伤害。该学会别对人太好,为自己筑起一道围墙,把自己的心围起。该学会让自己坚强点,别再找借口逃避了。
《道德经》第十二章
五色令人目盲;五音令人耳聋;五味令人口爽;驰骋畋猎,令人心发狂;难得之货,令人行妨。 是以圣人为腹不为目,故去彼取此。
枫岚 : 12:38 上午