if there is still anybody who reads my blog i would like to say thanks for standing by this lifeless blog. haven blogged in mnths sorry. Ever since i came back from Europe i notice my post all had something to do with God. Sorry for doing these if you don't like it but hey i delight in writing about such posts about God. so this post is not going to anymore different.
life now after Alevels is quite slack had alot of time to think. and the more i think about my life the more i realised how great(understatement) is my God. After watching ponyo i decided to revisit all of Miyazaki's works. i was watching Laputa and when the movie comes near to the end, the lead female character said something that struck me. she said something like a king who does not have a heart for his people doesnot deserve a kingdom, no matter how powerful the army is or how advance the technology is. All of a sudden, i felt a deep sense of joy. For i know that God is a king but more than that, He is my Father. He is the only God who loves. looking at all other religions (no offense and with all due respect) i have yet to find a God who loves. All gods are somehow meant to be feared. if you do this wrongly or hold the jossstick with wrong hand or whatever have you, be fearful as you will be condemned. I am not saying that that is wrong. Even the bible says the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. Fear is something deeply rooted in our asian culture and i shall not expand on that. But God did not want us to only fear Him. He wanted us to serve Him not because we fear the consequence of our actions but because we love Him and genuinely want to serve him and find joy in doing so. That's why i love my God. He is more than worthy of a kingdom. He gave His Son in exchange for our souls. In every sense of the word His Son was everything that He has. Before He created the world, He had only His Son. Something is of value because of its rarity. gold and silver are not rare to Him as he can create them freely as He willed. His Son is of utmost value that nothing can compare. But God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that all who believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. How loving is this God of mine. I surrender to Him not because He is mighty and powerful ( makes Him no different from a tyrant) but because He is love. Not by might not by power but by the Spirit of God that is LOVE. How many gods love? How many of us live in fear of divine wrath? Even if today i have lose my salvation, i will still say my God is great. He is my only God, my True Master and my King, my Abba. Let all that have breath praise His Holy Name. Amen
枫岚 : 3:24 上午 well i just got wind about a young man who passed away at the start of april. i know this is kind of late and i don't know but it seemed that he had impacted alot of peoples' lives.
so i suddenly had the inspiration and this is what i wrote
when in doubt, pray
when without faith, pray
when in grieve, pray
when lost, still pray
i don't know why i wrote this but i think the Lord is trying to tell me something. I have seen a lot of people pass away at a young age. A girl from my school at my age was lost to cancer, brother's friend who committed suicide, young and extremely healthy people is pass away. What i sense is cherish today our friends and families and pray for tomorrow to come. For we all don't know how long we have to live. All these while i have been trying to bring people who were christian back to the Lord. Somehow, i feel that i tend towards this area as i feel that what break my Lord's heart the most is to see believers turn away from Him and shut Him out of their lives.
Anyway i am not a theologist i don't know whether whatever i said above is theologically sound but i feel that it is so. but now back to the topic of prayer. We as christians lead a life in which we could communicate with our King directly, to confess our sins and to freely worship Him. this is a gift. in the times of the old testament, our only way of communication with God is through the priest. Therefore we should not leave this gift aside and use it as a last resort. i think we should use it even just to talk to God. We are but just fragile living beings. there is only that much we can control. Prayer is the second most powerful thing that God has given us. the first is, of course, our salvation through Christ. So when faced with any situation just pray.
枫岚 : 11:04 下午 yes this is a shout out to all my teacher from kindergarten (though i think they would read my blog) to current JC teachers. Happy Teachers Day. A big Thank You for tolerating this insolent brat all these while and all the life changing experiences. to all my choir teachers: thank you for giving
the time of my life. Dextre will not be what he is today without you people (not that i am that great afterall). So many things to say but i erm will not be emo here.
Yes prelims is over( finally). there are two thing that i learned during this period of time. one, the japanese spirit of KAMIKAZE. nope not being literal here but every time i step out of an exam hall, i felt like i have suicided myself again. YES, not joking. this is probably the worst exam i have taken all my life. sighzzzzzz. the second thing i have learned is nothing new but yah here it goes. God always provides even in times when you have no faith. like somebody once said," the Lord is faithful. even when we are faithless, He remains faithful." yup and most importantly, God took whatever little that i studied and multiplied it. well so i don't really care about the results per se. just hope it is not too discouraging
now for a switch, today is all college bowl day, and we had bowling at mount faber safra. i am super happy today as a broke my 150 barrier. but of course how can i be so pro? ( yes i know 150 is quite noob, we had the school bowling next to us like each of them had scores above the 200 mark line but let me boost my ego abit ok? it is much needed after prelims) here's the trick! we were playing nine pin tap which means as long as you had nine pins down, you get a strike ( is it me or is it that i hear people booing) yes ok i know this is cheating but give the man a chance so any way i got 166 so happy(disclaimer: my top score for the day, month, year and so far my life)
anyways i feel so broke now but yes i am satisfied
dex out
枫岚 : 6:51 下午 i am damn pissed i cannot find my old blog sigh
any body can help i noe the site starts with blog something
枫岚 : 11:33 下午 hey guys just came back from tour. still recovering from jetlag and diahorea. the trip was great. learned alot of new stuff and was reminded of alot of things that i have forgotten.
i found the reason for belonging to the choir again. the feeling of the magic in the music. something i found was missing for a long time ever since the end of caroling last year. i found it on this trip. the feeling was great. and for the first time in many moons i was able to sleep peacefully without aid. because i knew that i have found what was precious to me.
the tour was also of a spiritual journey. Alot of things that were unplanned in the trip fell into place perfectly like a piece of jigsaw fitting into the picture. it is just like you throw everything into the air and everything lands in place into a beautiful picture. it is just amazing. amazing to see how God actually arranges everything in place for us when we ourselves don't know how to arrange the stuff. that is seeing the hands of God at work. just by well wishes, many things were arranged without us having to pay a single cent. i can't help but to stand in awe. when we work for His name His glory,He provides for everything else.
the following are just some random thoughts during the tour
it is intriging to find that what we hate in others are the very things we hate about ourselves but yet it is the "us" that we see in others that draws us to them
The Lord is the Lord of all things. The Alpha and the Omega. The Beginning and the End. The Lord of the Past, the Present and the Future
枫岚 : 8:40 下午 好久没来写东西了。真不知从何说起。一年有过了，我仍是一事无成。其实我不知到底有多少人会读我写的东西。我想应该只有我一人。所以我只在我认为我要写东西的时候才来写东西。无论如何，我会写下去因为我是我自己的忠实读者。我又有了学弟学妹。都早已忘了当学长的滋味。我的学弟学妹们一个个都是人才出众，我这个学长实在是当之有愧。看着他们，我回想起一年前的我。我看见了因为无法回到英华而心急如焚的我的影子。看见了第一天到校不知所措的我的影子。时间过得真快。这一切就像是上一秒所发生的事。真不敢相信我的路已即将走到尽头。两年太短了。时间仍旧是我无法掌握的东西。
近来发生的事太多了。我发现我已经没有在乎的东西了。爱恨情仇也已是尘封了的童话。我只打算过一天是一天。现在只想珍惜和我的学弟学妹们在一起的时光。
枫岚 : 8:33 下午 六月十二号，凌晨三点二十五分。我失眠了。怎么也睡不了。虽然度过了漫长的一天，十分疲倦但躺在床上近五小时了仍然无法入眠。脑袋里一直想起白天的事。朋友介绍了一份多层行销的工作给我。回报起步时虽不多但做得好的话能有汽车即现金的奖赏。想到这，我就难以入眠。这份工能让我实现我的理想。这就像上天赐与的完美机会。一想到当同学们还在为工作烦恼时，我已经能过衣食无忧的生活就兴奋极了。现在我只许安心地去找周公下棋，还真希望能找到他。
枫岚 : 2:59 上午 假期，休憩之期。但忙忙碌碌的生活早已过惯了，真是静不下来。至少在新加坡我静不下来。它不分昼夜跳动的脉搏拖着我累极了的躯体，不让我困乏的灵魂有任何休息的机会。这是我要离开这里的种种原因之一。我想逃离这个城市。我想要过宁静的生活。我只需要一个机会，一个逃避这日夜合一、让我毫无喘息的机会的鬼地方。到别的地方去。去一个宁静的城市。
枫岚 : 11:36 下午 
